April 2007


Imagine you are shopping for say, a bag. You have gone to almost every single bag shop along Orchard Road and finally, you find one that you really like – the design, the colour, the size – and the price is pretty reasonable. But there is one problem; you can’t get over the fact that there is a small print of, say a unicorn, on the bag. You stand in the shop staring at the bag again and again. You really like the bag very much, but the small print that you do not fancy is really quite an eye sore. “Should I buy it, should I buy it?” You kept asking yourself. You have been out the whole day, you are tired and the thought of having to go to another place is just not too appealing. What do you do?

For me, I choose to forget why I even like the bag in the first place and only remember the fact that it has got an ugly print on it. I may even come up with more reasons why I do not like the bag. I will then quit shopping for the day and hope that I will find one that I like on my next shopping trip.

But sometimes, it is difficult to forget something that you like so much, so easily. So, it keeps coming back to haunt you. After a while, I am not too sure how I feel about the bag anymore. And when I finally decide to take another look at the bag again, it is already out of stock.

This is me, most of the time, for almost everything that I do.

I must stop.

Another week for this 24-week internship has gone by. Minus the weekends of public holidays, I have technically about 33 days left at work.

I will be turning 23 this year, but I certainly do not feel much like an adult. Feels like I am pretty childish still. Not adult like and all. Maybe I will remain like this for life.

I have began to realise that a lot of opportunities have been served to me on a plate but I have always ignore them or just cannot be bother to lift up the cover to examine the dish on the plate. Most of the time, I just wishfully think that I can skip the main course, but still satisfy the hunger pangs, and go straight to the dessert. Not gonna work. There is a reason why there is an order, a sequence for everything. Taking shortcuts can be pretty fatal. You’ll never know what you’ll have to deal with to get to your destination. At least you can learn from your predecessors’ experiences on the beaten track.

I need to start thinking what I want to do after I graduate. Actually I do not mind anything. I just hope that I will be able to excel in what I do. That would be the most important.